I delete what i write, it's becoming a habit of mine. I write chapters and chapters. I reveal my deepest thoughts, i hang out my deepest fears. My emotions, my desires, my eveything i pour out. I'm strung out tighter than the chords on your guitars. As my aching fingers rest, i read out all my thoughts at best. I am revealed, peeled out and broken. I am ashamed, embarassed and stolen. I start to delete and deep down i know, that once they vanish you'll never know. The deepest secrets inside of me, screaming and aching waiting to b set free. 

A hidden gem inside of me
Staggered
Rough
Raw
Animalistic

A buffed up 
Clean
Crystal
Composed
A diamond for everyone's view

I am the charcoal waiting to b clean
I am the lead that sketches your dream
I am the rope that winds you to knots
I am the knife that slits all your thoughts

You are the muse that drives me insane
You are the hands that meddle with my brain
You are the sculpture that makes me
You are the artist that will break me

Someday
One day
Or iF never
Awake 
Dreaming
Forever
Never

"Mais tu as des cheveux couleur d’or. Alors ce sera merveilleux quand tu m’auras apprivoisé ! Le blé, qui est doré, me fera souvenir de toi."

je ne peux pas vivre sans toi
tu es le vent qui souffle dans mes cheveux
tu es le sang qui court dans mon corps
je ne peux pas vivre sans toi
tu es mon univers secret
tu es la raison pour laquelle je souris
je ne peux pas vivre sans toi
tu es incomparable
tu es ma force
tu es invencible
tu es mon amour 
tu resteras pour toujours.
il ya des jours où tu doutais
il ya des nuits que tu ne savais
que je ne comprend pas qu'un jour je serais sans toi
tu ne sais pas que cette jour là la vie s'arrêtera 
le vent ne souffle plus
je ne serai plus moi
je ne peux pas vivre sans toi
je me perds dans tes yeux
je me perds dans tes baiser
je ne suis plus moi-même
je ne peux pas vivre sans toi
trouve moi
vite.

the face

the eyes

the mouth

the person

the vision

the truth

iF you were made of dust, dust that floats and scatters by a simple blow of wind. 

imagine wat it would feel like iF you were kissed. a simple kiss will make you feel grounded. you will feel stuck, you will feel like floating and flying soaring higher than you ever imagined, but suddenly you are weighed down by your emotions, anchored down by your own denied urges. the lightness that was once there, stealing a glance, lingering for a laugh, or staying for a touch is turned upside down and inside out.

now the seams that have once sewn you together like a perfect cozy quilt is quickly falling undone. you feel the breeze that is left behind by this disheveling. you sense the loss of warmth and security. your cover is blown, threads are everywhere, dangling from trees, looping around your ankles, staggering your breathing, wrapped so tightly around your neck, blended so colourfully with your hair. 

you are made of dust. 

you are free. 

you are made of dust waiting to be kissed by me.

i can make you ugly. 

i can make you grey.

i can change your dust.

i can make u stay.

just one kiss and you'll know

just one kiss i tell you so

something you will never outgrow

a rare side i will never show.

but somehow deep down as you revel in this thought

your ID is stirred beyond remorse

it craves to consume

it longs to conquer 

it wants to search 

it wants to be kissed

your ID will never find me

your ID will never seek 

your dust became mud

your consumed

your conquered

you've been found.

just one kiss

just once

devoured

tasted

poisoned

tainted

i gave you one kiss

one kiss

and you

you gave me your heart.

i'm cutting you lose
i'm letting you get out of my system
it's a rocky road but it had to happen
a fantasy gone overboard
a memory on overkill
too long
it was bound to fade
i'm like driftwood floating on a lazy river
ur the hurricane that left chaos

i'm cutting you lose
i'm sending you away
you're bitter sweet memory will soon fade away

i'm cutting you lose
now go away
never figured out
but somehow i knew you would never stay