i woke up with a thought.
i woke up with a dream.
i woke up writting this :

happy
witty
glowing
alive

gloomy
dark
void
dead

the angel and devil in one mind
they struggle, they fight, they try to kill each other.
they r never defeated.
indestructible, yet inhabitable.

cease!
my mind screams voicelessly.
be at peace.
but all i get is a smirk. i stand outside looking at the morning sun feeling a cool breeze on my face. my angel glorifies it's existence and praises the beauty of the surroundings. my devil laughs and throws a fit about taking advantage of this weather to go run away. never look back. it's the perfect weather to fly he whispers and i feel his breath flame hot on my ear.

i shiver.

my angel sees love, my devil seeks lust.
my angel feels satisfied, my devil longs for instant gratification.
my angel wants to embrace, my devil wants to fck

cease!

i look around and my mind is numb from all the bickering. all this battle only takes a fraction of a second in real life, but it my mind it is eternity.

i am not good yet i am not evil.

all i am is a woman standing in the morning breeze enjoying the dancing sun rays on my face.

wish i got a jacket.